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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
「 love was in the air, 6:02 PM 」

He called again, in the middle of my sociology class. This is the 2nd time this week(by week, i mean the past 7 days, not this monday to this sunday). I didn't answer his call this time. What makes him think i am ready to have him back in my life? Just cos i replied his message? Oh well, i answer lotsa other ppl's messages too. Does that mean that i have no grudge against that person? Seriously, i have so little trust in him that i think he is up to no good again. I somehow feel that he wants me back so that he can have some form of a back up again. Yeah... i seriously think that no single part of him is good.
Oh well, some part of me knows that if i wanna move on, i hafta forgive, forget and eventually put this burden down. But yet, some part of me don't dare to do so. I am worried that if i do so, i will end up hurt and injured again. I dunno man... Right now, i don't think i am ready to move on yet. I'll just carry the burden around. Somehow, i think that's easier than letting it all go.

YYY